i know, i did exactly all that and worse. i went and screwed it all up. i know this. and i know you’ve given me so many chances that i never deserved. you’ve given me everything, sacrificed so much, hurt so deeply and shed so many tears, all  because i was too foolish to see what was going on. but this is my hope: i’m holding on to the words you wrote me in this letter. they are the only things keeping me going right now. i know that i’ve broken promises and disappointed you, and that it’s far fetched for me to expect you to keep the promises you made to me in this letter. but please, if you ever loved me or had any sort of feelings for me, please give me one last chance and i will be perfect. if you’ve been feeling this whole time what i’m feeling now, the feeling of no hope, that there’s no light at the end of the tunnel, i’m so sorry for putting you through that and you’re right to move on. i don’t know what’s going on anymore in your life, and i’ve lost the right to know these things-but i want you to know that you are still the center of my life, and that it’s my biggest regret i didn’t spend every minute of every day showing you how much you mean to me and still do. please, i am broken. if you’re looking for the person you first met and fell in love with, he is here now. i miss hearing your voice, your laugh, everything. not just because you’re gone now but because you leaving made me realize how so important all of these things are to me. i get it now, okay? a relationship isn’t one big thing, it’s a million little things. and i want to spend everyday reminding you of each and every way you’ve made my heart smile. maybe these words are falling on deaf ears, but please, give me the chance to get to know you again…and i’ll remind you of why we fell in love with each other. it’s not just about being with someone, it’s about being with the one. i still believe and know in my heart that it’s you.

-ace