remember that time where we had a fight and you said that we should write each other a promise to really make things clear? well, if i wasn’t so stupid and lazy i would’ve realized that this is what i had wanted to do all along, to clearly define what we want out of this relationship. i know you’ve told me several times it’s too late for everything, but if you could just look and see at what’s waiting for you, if somehow there’s a miracle you decide you really want to work things out, you might want to give it another try.

I, Antonio Bitgue Casal III, hereby promise…

…to make a one Isabea Pelino the happiest woman i could possible make her.

…to make time, every single day (unless there is a blackout of some kind), just for her whether it’s phone or Skype, so we can talk about anything. whether it’s what we had for dinner, what we did today, or why this sky is blue.

…to cherish her and her love, and never again take for granted the precious gifts she’s given to me.

…to be open, to always communicate my feelings, deepest secrets and be receptive of hers.

…to not expect her to feel the same way I do about everything, she is nothing like me, and that is why i love her so.

…to stop with the ASSuming and sarcASSm. she always has and forever will be loyal to me as long as i love her the way she deserves to be loved.

…to let her live her life. she is young and deserves to have a social life. i will try my very hardest not to get jealous but it’s hard with someone as beautiful as you.

…to respect and to listen to her feelings, whether i think they are a big deal or not. (it’s cold in my room!)

…to wish her a good morning every day i wake up, and a good night every night i go to sleep.

…to be patient. she is sensitive and needs extra special care, which is why i must learn to be gentle with her, physically, verbally and emotionally.

…that whenever she really needs me, that i put down whatever i am doing, and attend to her. she has sacrificed so much for me that the least i can do is put my games or movies or book on hold so i can listen to what’s wrong and do my best to comfort her.

…to never hesitate in offering help in any situation, whether it’s something emotional, physical or financial.

…to pray the Rosary every day. (I already promised this to God if he would bring you back to me.)

…to go to Church every Sunday. (This too.)

(I’ve already been praying and talking to God and asking him for the strength to endure this pain and to hopefully bring you back to me. I started believing again because to believe there is no God is absurd. Only God could have created someone so perfect and so beautiful as you, and to say that you are the result of something random is completely insane.)

…to make things more simple and easy, because if i remember correctly, it doesn’t take a lot to make you happy, just a few simple things at the right times.

…to always make her feel that she is important to me, and to help her realize how much she is worth, and that’s everything to me.

…to stop making things up. (Yes I did these things, not you, and I’m sorry i blamed you for it.)

…to try to surprise her. (I’m not good at this because I have a big mouth, but i will try for sure.)

…to love her, with ALL my heart. not just to say it, but to live it, and make her feel it in her heart so she never again has to wonder if its true.

…to let go of my self-destructive behavior. remember when you told me you used to start fights because you wanted to have me fight for you back? well i think i did the same thing, except for some reason there is a part of me inside that wants to see myself fail. i can’t explain this and it’s a problem i have, and it’s something inside me I’m asking you to accept and help me to overcome. i’m only realizing this exists now because close pointed it out to me and i never realized how true it is. if we ever talk again i can explain it more in depth.

…to let the world know, how proud i am to be the only man in her life.

…to be, in time, her one and only loving husband, to love her forever, not even till death do us part.

…not to talk about it, but be about it.

…to always put her first. everyone will know the truth, that in my time of greatest need, you were the only person there for me 24/7. and because of that everyone else will have to understand and take a back seat to you and whatever it is you want from me.

…to try my very best to show even the slightest bit of love and affection you showed me all this time, because even after all the things i said, it would still be a difficult feat to match all you have given and shown me.

…that if i should ever falter on anything mentioned above, that all you need to do is read this to me, and i’ll come back to you.

I hereby promise, on pain of death, that if we are to be in a relationship, I will carry out the aforementioned to the very best of my ability.

If I’m missing anything, please let me know.

I’m thinking about you, every second of every minute of every day, and I miss you more than my heart can bare. I need you in my life, babynodoe. I love you, I love you, I LOVE YOU.

forever & always,

Ace.