but if two people really love each other, they work it out. i know that the way i was acting didn’t show the love you deserved, but i am truly whole heartedly ready to change, i mean that. i know you know that i love you so much, and i know deep down you still love me too. i want to be your everything again. i know you mean business, i should have always known and never let it get this far, i can only show my regret so many times. please, i’m ready to work it out once and for all. we’re both still young (you more than me), and i don’t think we’ve given “us” a fair shot at life. that goes for both of us babe! please, i told you from day one i was in this for the long run and i mean that. two years to me isn’t even close to the long run. if we’re still having issues 6,7,8 years down the line, maybe it’s time to reassess things. but it hasn’t even been two years. if we can know everything there is to know about each other in two years, then obviously we’ve been asking the wrong questions. i know that there’s so much more to know about you and i want a chance to really know everything, and i want you to get a chance to know everything there is to know about me before you decide whether i’m right for you or not. lets stay together babe, and get a head start on our future, please. i’ll make mistakes, and i’ll continue to make those mistakes over and over again but i’ll learn babe, for you i swear to God i will. “Be not afraid of going slowly, be afraid only of standing still.” i want to share everything with you. to laugh, play, pray, sleep and dream together. we still have so much to do together, including Crystal Mae. i wanted to tell you this, i don’t know why, but i had a dream about talking to a little girl in sign language. she was so beautiful and sweet. she was wearing pink and i felt like i had such an easy time talking to her (not something i have an easy time with normally). we were signing to each other (i don’t know how i knew nor do i know what i was saying), and after she smiled and hugged me, and that’s how i got the idea to sign i love you in that first post. maybe it’s Crystal Mae telling me a way to try to win you back because i’m sure she wants to be alive and meet her mom. wow…you know what, now that i think about it i’m sure that’s what it was. i miss you and not having you even for just this short time has been agonizing. i love you baby, with all my heart and i miss you so bad. please give it a thought.