there have been many times when you asked for time away, a break, to see if this is what you really wanted. i remember them all so clearly now. i hope that it isn’t really over, that this is just one of those times where you need a break to really reassess the value of our relationship. i know you’ve been out and socializing and living your life. you have every right to. but while you’re away looking for something, i just want you to know my side:

i want to be yours. forever and ever.

i want to be able to talk and work any issues out, whether they are big or little.

in spite of how angry we are at each other, you are my one true love and i know that there is nothing big enough that we can’t see it through together.

i hope that when you think about us again, you realize that our relationship was so much more than just fights, texts, and wifi. it was so much more. our moments of happiness were in the details, like sitting together at Perkins & Red Robin & iHop. please remember how i put my hoodie over you in the rain while we walked back to the car. please remember the good times we had. watching Storage Wars, random movies, you making me pancakes. there is so much more of that for us in the future, i’m so sure of it. i’m almost free from this commitment to the Army, my love. you told me you would wait for me, that you guaranteed that we were the only ones for each other. please make good on your word like i will make good on mine. when i’m out, we will really start our forever, together. it’s all i’ve ever looked forward to since i took my first flight to Oklahoma. please, my darling baby doe, take me back into your life, as slowly as you need to. i’m not here to fool you, you can hold me to these words and take anything as collateral. i know i’ve promised a lot while i’ve been writing here but if  you give me the same dedication and love that you did before, i will make good on them.

they say that if you love someone, let them go, and if they return to you it was always meant to be. well, that’s what i’m attempting to do now even though i have no say in the matter. i hope that in the end this time away will have strengthened our bond and our love. i’m thinking about you every second, every minute of every day, and i still love you with 111% of my heart. i love you, i love you, I LOVE YOU.

forever & always

-ace